I’ve spent the last couple of days simultaneously doing everything and doing nothing. It has been glorious–just me, myself, and I–along with a huge fuzzy blanket and my couch. In between the times that I’ve been curled up, mindlessly scrolling through my newsfeeds, I’ve cleaned a closet (which created space for all my outdoor gear to be in one place), ordered my essentials for the new year (a new planner for inspiration and organization, a 64 oz water bottle with a sipper to effectively and efficiently meet my hydration goals, a fresh supply of meal prep containers so I can prep weeks worth of breakfasts and lunches, the book Bird by Bird by Anne Lamotte so I can be instructed on writing and life, new bite valves for my hydration packs because it is now too cold to be leaked on when running for a long time, and a new food scale because mine broke a few months ago and I’m pretty sure that the 4 oz. portions of meat that I’ve been recording in my food journal are probably more like 8), balanced my checkbook, baked a few loaves of a healthier-than-usual banana bread to chow down on long run days, gathered a huge pile of stuff to be donated, painted my nails, and I finally got around to coloring my hair with the $6.99 box of hair dye that has been sitting on my bathroom counter for at least two months. Whew. Doing everything and nothing at the same time makes a girl tired, ya know? BUT…through the everythingness and nothingness of these two glorious days, I’ve managed to hash out my goals for the new year. I do not take these things lightly and have been thinking about some of them (and already have been working on some of them) for a while now, in anticipation of a full-on commitment as the new year rolls around. Here they are, in no particular order. (Drumroll please.)
- HYDRATE PROPERLY. Every. Damn. Day. No exceptions. Water is life. I feel like shit when I don’t get enough of it and yet, there are days, too many days when I fall short. Again, water is life. One more time, water is life. Enough said.
- UNCLENCH MY JAW. Yes, that is my goal. For real. This one actually kind of scares me. A LOT. A WHOLE LOT. For this to happen I’m gonna have to get down and dirty in my authenticity and be fiercely honest about the sources of my angst. I’ve been doing some prework here and I know that some hard change is going to have to happen in my life in order to meet this goal. Stay tuned for this shit show. It’s gonna be a good, bad, and ugly one. But probably mostly just ugly.
- THINK YOUNG. And do this without fail, just like my hydration goal. Every. Damn. Day. No exceptions. This morning I read a beautiful little story about a 99-year old woman that still teaches weekly yoga classes. The story talks about the power of thinking young and the benefits that go along with it. After spending the last year attending a long-drawn-out pity party about my middle aged-ness, I am so ready for this reframe on life. So ready. Dammit, I want to be 99 and teaching yoga classes and/or running marathons. Why the hell not? Think young. Every. Damn. Day. No exceptions. I’m on it.
- COMMIT TO CREATING. My creativity has been lost over the last couple of years. I miss it. I crave it. I’ll be working hard to find it again. (No doubt, this goal is directly related to Goal #2 and I’m pretty sure the creative piece of me is firmly entrenched in my clenched jaw.) But beyond excavating my latent creativity, I am committed to creating space for strengthing relationships, both old and new, and to lots of play, and connectedness, and belonging, and faith, and love. (This one came to me this morning so I have yet to begin unpacking what needs to happen to meet this intention, but I’m kind of excited about it. It sounds like so much more fun than the work it’s gonna take to unclench my jaw.)
That’s it. Short and sweet but really deep. What about you? Goals, resolutions, and intentions. Love ‘em or leave ‘em? Do you set ’em? If so, how do you keep yourself accountable? Do you share ’em? Write ’em down? Something altogether different? Whatever you do or don’t do when it comes to goals, resolutions, and intentions–I wish you peace, love, and joy as 2018 comes to a close and 2019 begins.
P.S. and a side note to my hydration goal: As I was writing this, I was reminded that there are people in our country that do not have access to clean drinking water. There are people that are hungry. Some do not have shelter. I know most of us living in rural Minnesota can’t wrap our heads around all of that as we are quite the privileged bunch out here when it comes to the basic human necessities for life. I know that many of you already do this but if you are reading this and don’t already and are able, I challenge you to do some year-end giving. How about donating your time, talents, or dollars to a non-profit dedicated to serving those that need to be safe, fed, and loved? Actions, not words. Do unto others. You get the gist. Sometimes I forget how damn lucky I am to be able to sit down and write about things that probably don’t matter much in the grand scheme of life, like my new year’s resolutions.
P.S.S. Goal #5- GRATITUDE. GOBS OF IT. EVERY. DAMN. DAY.